The Decision to Backpack Around the World

Excerpt from my journal, dated April 19, 2002

Goals and Motivation

Variables

You’ve probably deduced a few things about me already.  I started writing in a journal in 2002.  My reasons were unrelated to travel plans, however it served as a great outlet for that subject too.  I’m goal-oriented, or at least began to develop an awareness of, and strength behind, that trait in 2002.  I was unemployed and in debt.  It would seem to be an odd time to consider setting such a grandiose goal as to eventually quit a job I have yet to obtain so as to travel around the world.  There were a few other undercurrents in my life at the time though. 

I had begun to re-examine my values at the same time I began to explore Buddhism.  The confluence of thoughts lead me to place a higher value on international travel (experience) than materialistic wealth.  As I recall, the epiphany was rather understated.  It was a simple thought to myself, the power of which I would not realize until years later.  Almost everything I write in this series of articles can be attributed to this affirmation, or clarification, in values. 

Deciding to place a  higher value on experience rather than material goods is not an easy task in the consumption-hungry society of the United States.  It’s a challenge, though I miss the desire and attachments less and less.  It all starts with an awareness of what you’re buying into and whether all that buying leaves you any happier than before.  I’ve found backpackers tend to share this common value, as well as hippies!  Enough about the serious stuff, let’s look at how scary my finances were in early 2002.  Perhaps we can have a good laugh.

In March, I had been laid off from my first job since graduating college.  Between severance pay, vacation time, and unemployment benefits, I felt fairly comfortable in the short term given the enormous shock to my life.  Unfortunately, I took some heart in the fact that all of the employees from my company, from the CEO down, had lost their jobs at the hands of our parent company.  Such was life  when you worked for a technology company during the high-tech boom.  At the time, my debt looked something like this:

Student loans - $60,000

Car loan - $17,000

3 credit cards - $5,500

Total debt = $82,500

And I had the gall to think I could pay off the debt and build a surplus of another $15,000.  All together, we’re talking about $100,000. 

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